Thoughtful Thursday: Inertia
August 6, 2009
Wiseguy from Woman Anyone? has achieved Intelligentsia status every month since Thoughtful Thursday began. Current count: Lucky 7.
Ernessa from Fierce and Nerdy is back for the sixth time.
Our five-timer is Kristen from Dragondreamer’s Lair.
Jill from All Aboard the Pity Boat is three-peating.
Today let’s talk about inertia. You know, Newton’s First Law. Objects in motion stay in motion, and objects at rest stay at rest. It doesn’t always appear to be so, because external forces affecting the object such as friction or gravity may be hard to detect, but in a situation free from external forces, inertia persists indefinitely.
Newton’s First Law is true in physics, and very true of me.
I think it’s true of most people to some extent, but it’s preposterously characteristic of me. Some examples:
It can take me a long time to get started on something, especially work. Once I get started, though, I don’t stop. Sometimes I’ll go to the office intending to stay for an hour, and emerge bleary-eyed and carpal-tunnel-wristed 10 hours later. My mind is usually happy to continue, and most of my body reluctantly obliges, but my stomach and my husband eventually call me home.
When I’m on a roll with something, I am so focused that I don’t stop, even when I really should. Often I don’t stop what I’m doing to pee until it’s so urgent that I have to sprint to the bathroom, on the verge of wetting my pants.
My daily patterns go in waves. For years I arrived at the office hours before anyone else except the cleaning crew (thanks to DH’s work schedule at the time). For the past several years, truer to my night owl nature, it’s a rare occurrence to arrive before noon.
Inertia has been a big problem since I’ve been pregnant. I spent the first several months, literally months, on the couch, only dragging my ass to work when absolutely mandatory (I had to go in several days a week for New Job, but I can work from home much of the time for Old Job). I kept up fine with New Job, but Old Job fell by the wayside. I did not touch an iota of Old Job work that wasn’t urgent, and I lapsed even on some urgent tasks, prompting some “What the hell?” phone calls to my house. Some of the outside forces in this regard have been less-than-pleasant to deal with, and my pregnancy trump card does not always work wonders as I was led to believe it would. Stop lying, fertiles!
Now that some fires have been lit under my lazy ass (including “don’t let other people down” fires and “think of your long-term career” fires as well as an improvement in the crippling dampers of fatigue and nausea), for the past few weeks I have been a busy little bee. I have completed things that have been on my To Do list for literally more than a year.
Meanwhile, DH has remained in a state of constant motion, as usual. This whole pregnancy he’s been in Batten Down the Hatches frantic work mode, doing as much as he can to earn money and accomplish major goals before the babies arrive and “his life is over.” This week, I insisted that we start making appointments most evenings for Together Time, because otherwise, aside from him bringing me food, I might not see him at all.
What does this have to do with infertility? Everything. As with the rest of my life, inertia reigns supreme. Before TTC, making the leap to start trying required a huge change of mindset. When we were trying naturally, I needed overwhelming evidence of pointlessness to get myself to the doctor. Stopping treatments wasn’t so hard the first time, precipitated by Miscarriage #1 and depletion of funds. Resuming treatments, on the other hand, occurred years after our self-imposed break had ended, and again required overwhelming evidence of pointlessness as well as acceptance of the fact that there would be no other way to conceive except for Big Guns.
One thing I can guarantee: once these babies show up, this object at rest (from treatments) will remain at rest, forever.
Are you driven (and not driven) by inertia? In what aspects of your life? What external forces interrupt your motion or cause you to stop being at rest?